I'm growing up

Its been a long time I've not write in this blog.Okay,since I have finished my school,so I have to work to earn money.haa!Well,I have a job right now.Alhamdulillah.Well,its not like a big job like that.I'm working at Aeon Big as Scanner.Do you what is scanner?haaa,let me tell you.A scanner is the one who put price on the stuff.Yeah,thats my job.It's quite okay,but I have one problem.I have to walk around the Aeon for many time.I have to check the stuff have the price.It's quite tiring right?But its okay.I'm fine.
Since I will turn 18 next year,its time for me to think about y future.What I want to become?How I'm gonna to be what I have to?In what condition that I need to become?That's question always in my mind.Well,I can't be like I was before.The one that always clinging with my parents.Its time for me to make decision that will make my parents relieved.I cant think about other people anymore.I have to be selfish.But in a good way.
I'm afraid actually.What if my parents dissapointed with me?What can I do if they really dissapointed with me?The only one that I don't want to lose is my parents' trust.Once you lose it,you will never get it anymore.Same like,"Once broken,cosider sold".That's what I mean.Once you break their heart,you will never got the original feelig.I guess I should plan right now.Besides that,only Allah will make it happen.In Sha Allah.

Hurt

Walaupun saya pernah cakap keluarga adalah segalanya,but we have to be realistic.Okay,since my sister has broke the hukum alam,now my mother only hope on us.Yes,us.The twins.Yes,Ido really like to further my study.I do want to feel how is it the life in university.I want all that.But,on the other side I have to think about my family.Means that I have to be realistic.There's no bulan jatuh ke riba.The truth is we have to find the moon.We don't have any relatives who has a lot of money.Well technically,I have.But as always my mother said,"kita tak berduit,apa saja kita buat semua nampak jahat."It could be a long story if I have to tell why my mother said that.Yes,pakcik makcik saya yang jauh ni hanya pandai berkata-kata.Well,tak semua orang boleh faham masalah kita.I just,have to clear the fact.The fact that they never will help us.
I'm kind like dissapointed with my sister.I know I don't want to be berat sebelah,but I guess what my mom said is right.She told my mom that she will help me on further my studie.But,the truth is she can't.She's married plus she will get a baby soon.She's jobless.I don't say that she didn't want to help us,but she can't.I know she will get mas if I tell her about I want to find a job with my SPM.But,what can I do?Nasib tak menyebelahi kita.Duit mana nak dipakai bila kita DUA orang masuk universiti?Now I really understand what people said,happy on the outside,but it pain in the inside.Yes,I can smile,act like usual.But I have to forget my dreams.Because we have to be realistic.I have no one who can listen my talk.No one.It really hurt actually.

BANJIR

Asalamualaikum.Saya dah habis SPM dah.Alhamdulillah tak ada masalah sepanjang saya menduduki SPM.Cuma hari tu ada salah faham.Kelakar pun ada masa tu.Pengawas tu kata saya tak ada dalam dewan peperiksaan sedangkan saya rilek je jawab kertas masa tu.HAHAHA..okay,tak payah lah nak cakap benda lepas.

  Sekarang dah masuk musim tengkujuh,so hujan je la ye sepanjang hari bagi sesetengah negeri di Malaysia.So far yang paling teruk saya observed di Pahang.Yelah kan,saya kan pernah bersekolah di Kuantan.So,saya ambil berat sikit tentang diorang.Sangat menakutkan keadaan banjir di Kuantan.Rasa nya ni yang paling teruk pernah menimpa Kuantan.Sabar sahajalah teman-teman ku.Ujian Allah ni sementara.Kita kena  bersabar dan tawakal kepada Allah.

  Tapi yang pelik korang ni,sempat lagi nak bertweet.Tweet kata kesian kat mak bapak la kena tanggung semua ni.Daripada korang sibuk berbalas tweet dengan member korang,baik nya korang guna masa tu tolong mak bapa korang punggah barang ke,kemas kan apa yang patut ke.Ni tak,sibuk cakap pasal kesedihan korang kat orang lain.Tapi, tak ada buat benda pun nak meringankan beban mak bapak korang.

Aku pun bukannya baik sangat.Tapi bagusnya korang tolong mak bapak korang okay?

   Okay,sampai di sini sahaja saya menulis ye.Semoga jumpa lagi.Wassalam.

Precious

Did you know the most precious thing in this world is family.Since i've been far away from my family,it really shows that family is most understand people in our life.No doubt.Its true.Since my father got cancer,our relationships is really precious for me.Although sometimes we fought,but that really meaningful.Because,when we fight each other,we will try to make-up right?Yes,we will do that and it will make us more closer.Trust me,you said that friends long last forever.Is it true?Think about it again.No,actually.Friends will not long last forever.Because why?Because they not understand you.Of course,there is still a true friends who will listen to your friends,share you happy and sad.But do you really think that they understand you?Yes,of course they will listen carefully to our words?But then,when they reach home,they will not think about you again.But your family?ALL DAY,EVERYTIME although you didn't even notice.You will said,that you have special boyfriend.Your boyfriend?They are same like your friends.They listen,they try to convince us,but still when he meets his friends,automatically they will forget about you.Unless your boyfriend is your husband.I miss my family.Badly.Not,physically but more to feeling.I miss when we all family talk each other.The moment when we had time together.I miss my father.The one will asked if I want to follow him to go to supermarket.I always get free gift whenever my father was there.My father really friendly you know?I know that all that is just past.All I can do,just keep the memories in my heart.FAMILY is all I want.

THREE MORE DAYS!

Three more days!Kyaaa!I'm pretty excited to finish this exam!Means,this month will be my last month as a student!(probably not).Apa-apa pun rasa nya  tak sabar nak bakar baju sekolah,jual semua kertas yang cikgu bagi + kertas exam.Tapi,add maths sangat lah susah.Inilah kertas paling tension buat sepanjang SPM ini.Harap-harap Fiz,Bio,Chem, tak ada lah susah mana.In Sha Allah.Dan tak pernah rasa macam nak lepaskann beban disebabkan kertas add math tadi.Sabar je la.Rasanya macam nak pergi pantai lepas tu main ar.Wah!bestnya. T_T...

KEMBAR

Lihat lah kami.Seiras kan?mestilah..kami memang kembar la.tengok gambar dah tahu kan?tapi yang pelik nya ada juga orang tanya,"awak dua ni kembar ea?"

Daaa...kalau sama tu confirm la kembar.tapi tak boleh salahkan diorg ark?maybe diorg jarang jumpa kembar,that's why jadi curious.Kalau dah nama pun kembar,we have so many similarities.Macam-macam kitorang kongsi.Gambar ni diambil masa Graduation Night.Ada 1 gambar kitorang take picture sama.Kalau nak tengok,boleh tengok kat profile saya.And kitorang dah nak habis sekolah dah.SPM victim kan.Tak sabar rasanya nak habis SPM.Rasanya macam mana ek?Kebebasan tanpa sekolah.Itu sangat ditunggu-tunggu.Okay lah,sampai ketemu lagi yeeee..Anyeong,Assalamualaikum.

WINNER IS TEAM A

Yeah!Team A is the Winner!congratultions to them.Team B did a great job.For me,they really did their best for this final.Please,make Team B debut later.Don't change the member.YG already gave out a statement that maybe the Team B will retained or replaced.They deserve to have a debut too!For Team A,they are recording 4 song and released this monday!I'm excited to wait their songs.They will follow Bigbang to Tokyo Dome,Japan!Japan fans really lucky to meet them!